"It is good for me that I have been afflicted"

   I have suffered with chronic health problems since I was 13 yrs old when I was diagnosed with lcerative Colitis and joint problems. One year after my husband and I married, my condition grew life threatening. I was in the hospital 7 weeks, got down to 78 lbs and ended up having major intestinal surgery. It was a slow, hard road to recovery.

   Treatment with steroids combined with arthritis led to the distruction of my hip joint and consequent hip replacement surgery at age 25. Then 12 years later, the same hip had to be replaced. Now more than 14 years later both of my hips are giving me trouble at times.

   For several years I suffered with Ankylosing Spondylitis, a form of arthritis that fuses the spine. But in recent years it has not been as active. I have chronic, sometimes severe pain from inoperable ovarian cysts, abdominal adhesions, fibromyalgia, migraines and arthritis. Due to many years of problems my tolerance level is very low and I struggle with chronic adrenal fatigue. There have been times the doctor said I was in total adrenal exhaustion.

   The Lord has used all these health problems to teach me submission and, by His grace, has not let me rebel. Through my teenage years it was a disguised blessing, for the Lord used it to keep me from "going with the crowd" and getting into things that I would later regret. My activities now, at times, are very limited and I still have to give up my "want to" many times. It is not easy and I have to cry unto the Lord every day for more grace.

My life is but a weaving between my Lord and me.
I cannot choose the colors He worketh steadily.
Oftimes He weaveth sorrow, and I in foolish pride
Forget He sees the upper and I, the underside.
Not till the loom is silent and the shuttles cease to fly
Shall God unroll the canvas and explain the reason why.
The dark threads are as needful in the Weaver's skillful hand
As the threads of gold and silver in the pattern He has planned.


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